April 2017 #IWSG: 5 Secrets for Overcoming Fear and Anxiety #AmWriting

 

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Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day.

The awesome co-hosts for the April 5 posting of the IWSG will be Chris @ Madness of a Modern Writer, Madeline Mora-Summonte, Fundy Blue, and Chrys Fey!

I completely missed last month’s IWSG? Where did March go? Apologies folks. I’ve been so busy here. We’re having an extension built on the kitchen and it’s been a noisy, dusty, disrupting mare! I’m also still compiling my 2oth Century Poetry portfolio for the module assignment (yes, still slogging away at it). The poetry book is coming along (although I still suck), as is my author statement of poetics (for those who care, I’ve classified myself as Confessionalist/Imagist, although there are overlaps). I can’t see this work getting me another Distinction grade, at all, what-so-ever. My great start elevated me to giddy heights only to fling me weeping to the grown.

Ho (sobbing uncontrollably) hum.

Anyway, I have a treat for those of you, like me, who suffer with stress and anxiety, either in general, or more specifically, with their writing, publishing and manic-schedules (seriously, why do we do this to ourselves?). Brace yourself for great advice (and try to put at least a few of these into practice). 🙂

 

 

Author: Marcus regularly blogs at psysci, a psychology, science blog that examines the latest research and explains how findings can impact and improve people’s lives.

 

What are you anxious or fearful about this month?

What are your coping mechanisms?

 

Feb 2017 #IWSG: Still Learning to Learn. #Poetry #Poem

 

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Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day.

 

The awesome co-hosts for the February 1 posting of the IWSG will be Misha Gericke, LK Hill,Juneta Key, Christy and Joylene Buter!

My Insecurities

I missed last month’s post I think. I’m a skittish woman lately; my mind a wondering thing carrying me on its coat-tails whether I like it or not. I’ve escaped, at least temporarily, to write this post.

Firstly, sorry if there’s been a problem with my email subscribe service. It’s paused my account because of the ‘bounce’ rate. I have no idea why bouncing is a bad thing but I’m trying to sort it out. 🙂

Insecurities are raging in me as always, though somewhat more now than usual. This could be because I’m waiting for the grades for my first module assignments, for Creative Non-Fiction. They needed me to complete a 9000 word memoir, a book proposal and a reflective essay.

The whole process was difficult because creative non-fiction is completely new to me (I never even read it much), and because of the subject I chose to write about. For those of you who don’t know, I wrote about my brother’s tragic brush with a negligent and erroneous judiciary and subsequent suicide in custody.

Weaved through this for context were flashbacks to our childhood, which meant a submersion of self into past lives… lives left behind for good reason. Not all of those lives were tragic thankfully, which has been both illuminating and reassuring. Not sure I’d like to do so again for a while, though. :/

My current module is 21st Century Poetry. This is another module I’ve never studied (not even at school) even though I’ve written poetry for years, on and off. I am learning that my version of poetry was largely word-vomit, which sucks, but I’m also learning how to change that! Swings and roundabouts.

My module assignment requirements are steep once again: A poetry book of 30 pages, a workbook, and a 1500 word author statement about my poetry, all by the 3rd May!

So…. that’s good. Ahem.

I haven’t done any writing of my own, other than making a start on the poetry book. Mostly, I’ve been re-writing the best poems out of a huge collection of drivel as I learn more. Although, revision never ends for me on anything I do because it’s NEVER good enough. I know many of you are the same.   🙂

Here’s one I wrote from scratch however, for this week’s homework (we have to present a new poem every week for class critique) The homework title was: “Write a poem about a journey”

 

Peddle Pushing.

 

Left-right, left-right,

swoosh, plummet, weave and soar…

…to and fro

downhill fast

up hill slow.

 

Sway in, sway out,

through cars parked, people not…

…shocked stray cats

and dogs, see

me ‘n’ scat.

 

Eyes closed, eyes wide,

for the very best of times…

…fast forward

breathless peace

like a plane.

Question:

  1. When read aloud (as poetry should be) did it have rhythm?
  2. Did it seem to flow, have clear meaning and direction?
  3. Did your ‘enjoy’ reading it?

 

I’m asking these questions because the best way to tackle insecurities is to learn, and we learn from feedback. If you’re insecure it means your care about doing something well. Although it can be a pain, I’ve decided that’s nothing to be ashamed of. 🙂

 

*LATE ADDITION: Just found out I received a DISTINCTION for my first module assignment (memoir). OMG! I’m shocked and very, very, happy. :)*

 

 

What are you insecure about this month ?

How has writing changed you as a reader?

 

Celebrating the Small Things: (Lesson 2&3) PLUS Meeting Author, Helen Cross #Writing #AmWriting

Celebrate The Small Things

Lexa Cain is the wonderful host of this meme, so start there. Go HERE to sign up and find the other hoppers.  Then each Friday, post on your blog something you wish to celebrate achieving / doing that week.

Here’s mine . . .

Being a hobo sucks!

Hello everyone. 

I'm writing this from my in-laws, where I've been for a week and will stay until Saturday afternoon when I fly off to the Costa Blanca region of Spain to see my mum for two weeks. 

Mum lives near La Horadada

We are STILL waiting for the bank to pull their thumbs from their *!$!! and agree to the mortgage so that we can get the house purchase under way. It should have been fast-tracked (because it was all agreed for the other house which we couldn't go ahead with because it has subsidence), but some jobsworth decided to put our application to the back of some queue at the underwriters. 

At this point, we're expected to be living with the in-laws for months to come. *Sob!!!

So what am I celebrating this week? Two weeks in Spain (while hubs is away working and Bobby is on his holibobs at the kennels)... It's a couple of weeks away from the in-laws, at least! I'm sure they'll appreciate two weeks away from me and getting their house back, too. 

On my return, I'm hoping to celebrate mortgage approval, and finally sending the surveyor to the new house for our report! Fingers crossed this one doesn't have subsidence as well.

What are you celebrating this weekend? 

Celebrating the Small Things: Creative Non-Fiction (Lesson 1) #Writing #AmWriting

Celebrate The Small Things

Lexa Cain is the wonderful host of this meme, so start there. Go HERE to sign up and find the other hoppers.  Then each Friday, post on your blog something you wish to celebrate achieving / doing that week.

Here’s mine . . .

Being a hobo sucks!

Hello everyone. 

I'm writing this from my in-laws, where I've been for a week and will stay until Saturday afternoon when I fly off to the Costa Blanca region of Spain to see my mum for two weeks. 

Mum lives near La Horadada

We are STILL waiting for the bank to pull their thumbs from their *!$!! and agree to the mortgage so that we can get the house purchase under way. It should have been fast-tracked (because it was all agreed for the other house which we couldn't go ahead with because it has subsidence), but some jobsworth decided to put our application to the back of some queue at the underwriters. 

At this point, we're expected to be living with the in-laws for months to come. *Sob!!!

So what am I celebrating this week? Two weeks in Spain (while hubs is away working and Bobby is on his holibobs at the kennels)... It's a couple of weeks away from the in-laws, at least! I'm sure they'll appreciate two weeks away from me and getting their house back, too. 

On my return, I'm hoping to celebrate mortgage approval, and finally sending the surveyor to the new house for our report! Fingers crossed this one doesn't have subsidence as well.

What are you celebrating this weekend? 

Crawling back to you. #amWriting #IWSG

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Meme Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

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Monthly Question: How do you find the time to write in your busy day?

But first, a quick catch-up. 🙂

Hello, writers. Yes, I’ve been away, because illness and moving home has taken its toll.

The depressive episode which began last Winter has been kicking me hard, on and off. We moved house, and my husband’s been having issues at work. I’ve also been suffering chronic pain all over my body, which has been getting gradually worse. After lots of medical tests and ruling things in or out, I’ve scored a hat-trick: I have a disease (Hashimoto’s Disease), a disorder (Bipolar Disorder), and now I’ve added a syndrome to my health C.V. (Joint Hypermobility Syndrome). Turns out being double-jointed can suck – big time.

The reason I haven’t blogged much, especially this kind of blogging (which is where we share our lives, essentially), is because I seem to be moaning ALL THE TIME.  Who wants to read a blog where the negative has taken precedence? I know I don’t enjoy writing it.

But I have university to write about soon (although the university in question is rolling out mistake after mistake regarding admin and registration procedures, which has kept me busy), so I will keep taking my pills, keep up with the physiotherapy and try to focus on imparting any knowledge gained here. For you to get value from your visits to my blog, instead of an overall glum feeling of woe.


Right, now to answer the monthly question. 

I don’t have to struggle so much with busy, as I do with mood and pain, so it’s difficult to answer this. Also, the meds and the illnesses themselves cause foggy-headedness . My imagination has been subdued for months too, so it’s like someone’s taken a bottle of bleach to my subconscious. I sniff around and find it’s clean when it should be filthy with characters and plots.

I suppose it’s a version of writer’s block, something I’ve never experienced before? I’ve tried flash fiction, which usually get my juices flowing. Noting. I’ve tried to re-write a few stories to see if I can get back into the thrill of creation. That’s not worked either. 🙁

If this continues, I’ll be useless at university (where I’ll be studying a postgraduate degree in creative writing). Oh, and did I mention the course begins in a couple of weeks?

Of course, this month’s question will be much more relevant to me once I’m at university because I’ll be studying, reading, editing and writing. So, I doubt I’ll be adding anything to my meager publications during this time. I certainly won’t be ghostwriting, which mean finances will suffer. Still, what with my health being crappy, I’m not going to stretch myself in different directions. I’ll spend the next two years learning, and hopefully, I’ll be applying those lessons creatively. Plus, I have to produce a body of work to finish. If it’s any good, I’ll publish that.
Roll on normality. Roll on normality.
I’m crawling back to you. 
So, how do you find time to write? Do you have a poorly imagination?
Has it ever done a runner, left you blank?