Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!
Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day.
I missed last month’s post I think. I’m a skittish woman lately; my mind a wondering thing carrying me on its coat-tails whether I like it or not. I’ve escaped, at least temporarily, to write this post.
Firstly, sorry if there’s been a problem with my email subscribe service. It’s paused my account because of the ‘bounce’ rate. I have no idea why bouncing is a bad thing but I’m trying to sort it out. 🙂
Insecurities are raging in me as always, though somewhat more now than usual. This could be because I’m waiting for the grades for my first module assignments, for Creative Non-Fiction. They needed me to complete a 9000 word memoir, a book proposal and a reflective essay.
The whole process was difficult because creative non-fiction is completely new to me (I never even read it much), and because of the subject I chose to write about. For those of you who don’t know, I wrote about my brother’s tragic brush with a negligent and erroneous judiciary and subsequent suicide in custody.
Weaved through this for context were flashbacks to our childhood, which meant a submersion of self into past lives… lives left behind for good reason. Not all of those lives were tragic thankfully, which has been both illuminating and reassuring. Not sure I’d like to do so again for a while, though. :/
My current module is 21st Century Poetry. This is another module I’ve never studied (not even at school) even though I’ve written poetry for years, on and off. I am learning that my version of poetry was largely word-vomit, which sucks, but I’m also learning how to change that! Swings and roundabouts.
My module assignment requirements are steep once again: A poetry book of 30 pages, a workbook, and a 1500 word author statement about my poetry, all by the 3rd May!
So…. that’s good. Ahem.
I haven’t done any writing of my own, other than making a start on the poetry book. Mostly, I’ve been re-writing the best poems out of a huge collection of drivel as I learn more. Although, revision never ends for me on anything I do because it’s NEVER good enough. I know many of you are the same. 🙂
Here’s one I wrote from scratch however, for this week’s homework (we have to present a new poem every week for class critique) The homework title was: “Write a poem about a journey”
swoosh, plummet, weave and soar…
…to and fro
up hill slow.
Sway in, sway out,
through cars parked, people not…
…shocked stray cats
and dogs, see
me ‘n’ scat.
Eyes closed, eyes wide,
for the very best of times…
like a plane.
- When read aloud (as poetry should be) did it have rhythm?
- Did it seem to flow, have clear meaning and direction?
- Did your ‘enjoy’ reading it?
I’m asking these questions because the best way to tackle insecurities is to learn, and we learn from feedback. If you’re insecure it means your care about doing something well. Although it can be a pain, I’ve decided that’s nothing to be ashamed of. 🙂
*LATE ADDITION: Just found out I received a DISTINCTION for my first module assignment (memoir). OMG! I’m shocked and very, very, happy. :)*
What are you insecure about this month ?
How has writing changed you as a reader?