I’m busy doing nothing (but fretting & searching) …. #amWriting #IWSG

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Hi all. My insecurities this month are all about inspiration, or the lack there of. I have a few ways of maintaining my inspiration to write, or egging it on if it ever flounders. I take a walk, read something out of my comfort zone, watch a favourite movie, etc. All of which usually work a treat. Trouble is, these once reliable remedies have recently failed me.

Instead of waking up thinking of the next plot twist or character tweak, I wake to spend my days busy doing nothing. The following springs to mind:

I’m smiling listening to this because it reminds me of my dear ole’ dad, who used to sing this at his mum when she nagged him to get up off the sofa and do something with his kids when we visited on the weekends. Bless her, she had no chance. He was a lazy so and so!

Anyway, I digress.

The thing is, I’m not being lazy … as such. In fact, I really am busy. Busy doing a million and one things, day in day out, but none of them are writing the NA fantasy story I need to finish for someone. None of them are editing the next story for release under my pseudonym. And none of them are finishing the damn Supes series (will this EVER happen?)!!!!

The terrifying truth is:

Will I ever write again? Did I do TOO MUCH writing this year, for other people, and has that in some way sapped my soul? Drained my imagination?

Good news (and partly why I’m so busy):

After several months, we finally sold our house! Hurrah.

How? Well, the day after I told both estate agents to press the pause button on our listing (planning to take it down till Feb/March because of viewing fatigue), one of the agents called and practically begged me to allow a couple to view the house before we took it off the market. I reluctantly agreed, cleaned and posed the house, and welcomed them into our home.

They came, they saw, they loved it!

Alll good, yes! But then they emailed me last week (only one week after listing their house for sale) to tell me they are about to accept an offer!! ALREADY? How quick was that? We expected it to be after Christmas, at the very least. This is good for them, of course.

BUT WE HAVE NOWHERE TO MOVE TO!!

And there’s nothing thrilling for sale in the area we’re looking, a the moment. Seems everyone else decided to take their houses off the market for Winter, as we had intended. Grrr!

I have arranged around thirty viewings over the weekend (Hubs has been working away for the past two weeks and as I don’t drive, I’ve had to wait for him to return till we can go find our new home), but none of those houses excite me. I’m hoping that at least one ‘feels’ right when we step inside. It’s difficult to tell on photographs.

Please let one of them feel like ‘home’!! 

[Had enough exclamation points yet? Yep, me too.]

Also, I need to make time next week, as my mum’s visiting from Spain for around ten days, and there are numerous family visits which always come with a mummy-visit. And of course, Christmas is around the corner! Got your prezzies ready to go? Cards? Tree up?

So, I can’t see this awful non-writing situation changing anytime soon (despite needing to get that story to the client!!) – [Oops, more exclamation points].


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Well, that’s my insecurity exposed for another month. What are yours this November going into December? Anyone else fear inspiration — that unquenchable tug of desire to open your computer and nose about in the lives of imaginary people — has gone for good? 

 

What do you think?

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  1. Congratulations on selling the house! I hope you find something that feels like home.

    I’ve been stuck in the writing doldrums before, and it’s not a fun place to be. I hope your inspiration returns soon. Sometimes life gets too busy and isn’t conducive to writing, and sometimes the muses just aren’t working in our favor. Best of luck!

  2. This is a hard time of the year to write. Truthfully, I just took about 2 weeks off (my WIP that is, not other little pet projects). You know what I found? My mind started fixing all the things that kept me away and I came back supercharged. I think any time we have too much going on, the brain goes into survival mode and writing doesn’t fit into that phase. Best of luck! You’ve got enough going on to worry about right now.

  3. Congrats on selling your house. Hopefully, you’ll find something soon. Some days our lives are so crowded we can’t make time to write. That’s okay. Let the story percolate in the back of your mind. When you’re ready, it will be there waiting for you.

    Best wishes,
    Diane
    IWSG #85

  4. I wish we could get paid for fretting – I would be a millionaire by now! I am having trouble with inspiration too.
    Congrats on selling your house! I hope you find the perfect new place for you soon.

  5. The thought of moving gives me anxiety–I’ve never had to sell a house before and our area is still struggling from the bad economy. I would imagine that stress carries over to your writing, especially if you have series to finish and your writing is your business. I think it changes once writing goes from hobby to income maker. I’m right in the middle there and I am feeling the shift.

    I wish I had advice for you. All I can say is congrats on selling your house, and I hope you find either a temporary place or the home of your dreams! Right in time for Christmas!! 🙂

  6. Since you were so productive the rest of the year, I wouldn’t worry about it. Everyone needs a break, and with Christmas and the move coming up, there’s no way writing will flow well. Congrats on selling the house! My sister had a similar problem. They were even arranging a hotel and storage area, but luckily got it all wrapped up. Here’s to luck coming your way!

  7. Congrats on selling the house and wishing you much luck in finding your new home, Yeah its perfectly normal to lose the drive to write in face of major change and upheaval–selling your house and moving before you have a place to go is HUGE, Just did that in July this year, along with some other huge major changes still trying to find my writing groove

    Best of Luck and Merry Christmas
    Juneta @ Writer’s Gambit

  8. I think we *can* get burned out with too much writing (I’ve been there, at least). And selling a house…wow. That’s just so incredibly stressful that I can’t imagine being able to get much done! The last time we put a house up for sale was 8 years ago and I was so exhausted from the spur of the moment viewings that I ended up taking it back down again after a couple of months! Hope your 2016 gives you some quiet time to write. 🙂

    • So you know my pain. We’ve been in this hell since summer, when we first put out house up for sale. No the pressure to find a house before we lose that sale is horrendous. 🙁

  9. It sounds as if you’re burnt out and need a break from writing. Sometimes a break is the inspiration we need. I find perusing Pintrest and tumblr for hours equally inspiring. Take a break. When the time is right you’ll get back to writing. The itch always comes back.